A Perfectly Horrible, Terrible, Awful, Really Rotten Day…

Have you every had a perfectly horrible, terrible, awful, really rotten day? I had one a couple days ago. I was a raging fire. Not a pretty sight. I wasn’t exactly lovin’ life nor feeling very blessed. There was nothing to do but surrender to the time it took to live through that moment of wretchedness. And, even in the midst of my rant, to prayerfully talk with a safe someone about “the troubles,” as the Irish would say. For me, so much clarity emerges when I give voice to the raging fire inside and another person hears what’s searing my soul. Sometimes just saying it aloud is enough to put out the destructive fire. And I can again see the quiet light that shines…




In the introduction to his book To Bless the Space Between Us, Irish writer and poet John O’Donohue says this: 

“There is a quiet light that shines in every heart. It draws no attention to itself, though it is always secretly there. It is what illuminates our minds to see beauty, our desire to seek possibility and our hearts to love life. Without this subtle quickening our days would be empty and wearisome and no horizon would ever awaken our longing. Our passion for life is quietly sustained from somewhere in us that is wedded to the energy and excitement of life. This shy inner light is what enables us to recognize and receive our very presence as a blessing. We enter the world as strangers who all at once become heirs to a harvest of memory, spirit and dream that has long preceded us and will now enfold, nourish and sustain us. ” 


 The confessional conversations of good friendships are an invaluable means of attending the “shy inner light” that helps us recovery our very presence as a blessing. Some times those conversations allow us a new perspective on things, an opportunity to stand our concerns on their heads…or at least rotate them 90 degrees like the image at left. Seen from this perspective the image looks, to me,  more like a luminous bowl with an inner light able to nourish and sustain. Some of the nourishment that sustains me is the opportunity to face the flames, to douse those that are dangerous, bank those useful for igniting future creative sparks, and kindling those flames that give energy and excitement to my life.


What would your drawing look like of a perfectly horrible, terrible, awful, really rotten day? Do you have a safe someone to talk to about “the troubles?” Have you ever been able to turn your troubles upside down or rotate them 90 degrees and have a new perspective on the issue? If you were to draw the quiet light in your heart, what would it look like? How would you  define “confessional conversations of a good friendship?” Who are your safe someones?

Looking forward to your images, observations and comments!

The above drawing, oil pastel and baby oil on Bristol board, seen in three orientations, was created at an intutive drawing retreat hosted by Connie Rohde of C Gallery in Los Alamos. Visit Connie’s website at The C Gallery .

8 comments to A Perfectly Horrible, Terrible, Awful, Really Rotten Day…

  • Hey Lynne,
    First thought, my drawing would be a blank page to represent indifference. My worst days are when I feel indifferent towards others or I sense indifference towards me by the world and by God. I have a crew of people I can call when I’m experiencing a terrible day, but I only call when it gets completely unmanagable. I fear becoming a whiner.

  • Maureen

    I love the imagery…. and I have a fire within. let’s get together over lunch or coffee soon.

  • I’m especially interested in how the “awful” can rotate to an illuminated “bowl” to carry our stuff. Thank-you. Love the drawing!

  • Barbara

    I love the idea of a quiet light that shines in every heart. It encourages me to look for that light in those I meet or talk to. When you look for the quiet light that you know resides inside of them, you bypass pretense and you might even push through a wall to the desire inside that that person to be known. How would I define “Confessional conversations of a good friendship?” Perhaps the meeting of two quiet lights.

  • Michelle

    I had one of those days just yesterday — everything from three frustrating and totally unnecessary (i.e., wasted) hours with the bank, to spilling a milk shake in the car all over myself, to hearing the news that a dear friend had died. I couldn’t find the space in the midst my frustration and anger to even feel the loss until last last night. Still working on it, your post is a blessing this morning. My drawing — the bank covered in vanilla milkshake. I think my dear friend would have laughed at that.

  • Patricia Conder McWane

    You made my day. Thanks for the imagery, I love the LIGHT! We are having a snow storm on top of a snow storm so we need a light today at the end of the tunnel of snow. Seems recently my flames have been flaring & I need to calm & hold to the “Real Light” that we should always feel inside. My “Confessional conversations of good friendship” can be defined as steady, strong & willing without judgment.

  • Deanna J Bowling

    I had one of those days yesterday. A lot of pent up energy had to go somewhere, and it wound up putting my body in to congestive heart failure symptoms After more than 6 hours in the emergency room, the doctors decided that what first looked like a major event had turned into a non-event. THANK GOD I AM OKAY. But it was and is continuing to be a good warning to me about letting things get bigger than they actually are.

    For a picture, my roommate has a pressure cooker that is over say 30 years old. The picture would be yesterday of the lid rattling on the cooker threatening to blow off. Rather than as we do use it, for cooking pasta or a corned beef and cabbage dinner.

  • Hi Lynne,
    This is one of my favorite posts of yours. I really love the changing image. At first I did not see it for what it was, then as it turns while I read the story, It becomes something useful. Like most of my perfectly horrible, terrible, awful, really rotten days, I learn something new if I simply take a pause and look at them differently. Thanks for the nudge to see things different.

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